Friday, March 14, 2008

It's been so long

It feels like it's been a long time since I was pregnant with Madison even though it was only 2 years ago. I just think back to what I was doing this time two years ago. I probably was at home sick as a dog or at work trying not to get sick. I hadn't gotten far enough along yet to feel her movements yet, and we didn't even know for sure she was a girl yet. The world was so full of hope and promise then. It's hard to watch my friend's little boy grow up and hit milestones since he was born only a couple of months after Maddie. I just look at him and think of where she would be now. She would be very vocal and opinionated by now. She'd be driving the dogs crazy and probably trying to ride Olaf like a horsey. She would light up a room when she came running in. She would be a huge handful, but we'd love every minute of it. Damn, I miss her so much.


mesa said...

I feel the EXACT same way about Ella right now Ashley. EXACTLY. I'm reliving everything a year ago. It hurts that that is the only memories I have.

niobe said...

I know what you mean. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to bear seeing my niece who was born just about a week before the twins were supposed to be born. I ordered a tiny Easter present for her this morning and I felt like crying.