Thursday, March 27, 2008

Hello and Goodbye

Today one year ago I miscarried my 2nd child. I was sitting at my desk at work and my stomach started to cramp. I was hoping and praying it was just something I ate. I went to the restroom and I was bleeding. I freaked out. I knew in my heart that I'm not a bleeder. I didn't bleed at all with Maddie. I knew what was happening and that there was nothing I could do. Only weeks before we had seen the beginnings of our baby. I was only 3-4 weeks along so all we saw was the sac, but I knew you were there. And before I knew it you were gone. I think you were a girl, but I'm not sure. It's just a feeling that I have. Just know that mommy and daddy love and miss you so much, but I know Maddie is being a wonderful big sister to you. I will see you again one day, my darling.

A Part Of Me

As I sit and remember

When you were still a part of me

I try to forget...

Your life was never meant to be.

You were given a life, a soul, a name

But now things will never be the same.

You were mine to give life to

Though only for a while

Things had changed...

I will never see your smile.

Yet my love for you

Will never disappear

Though your voice, your laugh,

I will never get to hear.

You will always be my baby

Though I've never seen your face.

Not a thing in this world

Can ever take your place.

(c) Felicia Glik All Rights Reserved

My Angel Baby

To the baby that I carried

But never seen your eyes

Or tell you how much I loved you

Or ever to hear your cries.

You will never be forgotten

The excitement we had for your coming.

When I realized I'd never hold you,

The feeling I had was numbing.

My angel baby is who you are.

My angel baby you'll always be.

Your loving memory will live in my heart

So you will always be right here with me.

(c) Lori Jager All Rights Reserved


mesa said...

lots of love to you today Ashley. I remember being so numb about Ella and excited for you- and then you m/c'ed I am so blessed to have a friend like you where we can hold eachother up.♥

niobe said...

It seems like there's so much loss and sadness in this world....