Monday, May 12, 2008

T minus 24 hours

and counting until Madison's 2nd birthday/angel day. I took a paxil this morning since I've had a very short fuse for several days, and I'm getting very upset over stupid stuff. Robert and I took off work tomorrow to just spend time together doing things that I know Maddie would have loved to do. First we will visit her grave and put out some flowers and the new wind chime we got her this weekend. We'll go to the drive-thru safari park and have a nice lunch. Then we'll see a movie and have a little cake that night in her honor. We decided that this year we wanted to be alone with her without the distractions of having to entertain people. I still can't believe that it's already been 2 years. 2 whole years or 24 months or 730 days or 17, 520 hours since she became my firstborn, my baby girl, my everything. And 2 years since she went away. I hope that everyday in heaven she spends without me is like the biggest and best birthday party we could have ever given her.


Mindy said...

I'm so sorry Ashley. I'm glad that you made such wonderful plans for Madison's birthday.

I wish I had more words or some inner wisdom, but I can't begin to imagine what the last 2 years of your life have been like.

Please just know that if you ever need an ear or a shoulder you can count on me. You can call me anytime if you ever need it.

mesa said...

I love you and I hope you are doing a little bit okay.

Maria said...

((Hugs)) to you during this very difficult time. I will keep you and Robert in my prayers.