Sick Kid

The daycare mentioned yesterday evening that they thought Fuzzy may have an urinary tract infection because he was crying and holding himself whenever he tried to urinate all day. Oh joy! Thanks for telling me at 5:45 PM after all the doctors are closed instead of calling me during the day so I could make plans to get him in to his pediatrician. When he got home he acted like it was hurting him to go so we grabbed him some cranberry juice and gave him some pain reliever before bed. I drop him off this morning, and about an hour later the daycare is calling saying that he's doing the crying and holding again. I call his doctor, and luckily they could get him in about 20 minutes after I called. So I haul ass from work, grab him, and haul ass clear across town to the doctor. They weren't able to get a urine sample, but put him on antibiotics. Also the doctor is sending in a referral to a pediatric surgeon to have him circumcised. Oh joy! More fighting with his BM to get him a surgery that he needs. I wish the state could just sign off on these things. It would make everyone's life easier. I tried to call his social worker to give her a heads up, but I figured this close to a holiday she wouldn't be in the office. So I'll just wait until I hear from the surgeon's office to call her back and start the festivities.

Visit

I had another visit with the perinatologist today, and Rob went with me. This was the fastest visit so far. We didn't have to wait too long to be seen which was great. We had a nice long ultrasound, and got to see our little girl again. They checked her out very thoroughly. Her placenta looks great which puts me at ease. By this point when I was pregnant with Madison, her placenta had started to die in several places. Baby girl's due date is September 22. I have no clue where my OB got this date from. I think he looked up the wrong date when I first came in, and I didn't realize it until weeks later. Now he won't change it. My correct due date should be September 16. Baby girl is measuring almost 2 weeks ahead at this point. They are estimating her weight to be 1 pound 14 ounces! My blood pressure is still decent, and since I'm on the lowest dosage we still have room to increase medication if need be. I'm counting down the days until I reach my 3rd trimester which is my next goal.

All of our floors have been fixed so now I can get back to fixing up the house, and working on the nursery. We finished up Fuzzy's big boy room on Sunday, and he loves his new sports theme. I'm not sure when I last gave an update on Fuzzy's status, but we are still in a waiting game. The judge gave BM another 3 month extension before she will consider changing the case plan like the agency recommended. So we will go back to court in August. Actually Rob will go back to court because I can't travel outside the city anymore per my doctor. :( I was so hoping to be taking steps toward adoption by now.

Madison

Today marked 4 years since our daughter, Madison, was born. I still miss her everyday. I think about what she would be doing right now, and what she would look like. I still ache to hold her in my arms, and kiss her goodnight. I always thought that things would get easier with time, but actually things just change. This was the first year we've worked on her birthday. I did pretty good, and only cried a couple of times. I kept myself busy all day. Rob's mom picked Fuzzy up for us so we could have some time alone this evening. We took some sunflowers out to the cemetery, and spent some time there. Then we went for a nice meal. I can imagine that Madison would have been right there with us eating sushi with a big grin on her face. It's hard to believe that it's been 4 years...Happy Birthday my darling little angel.

I did not die young,
I lived the span of my life within your body,
And within your love.
If you would honor me,
Then speak my name and number me amongst your family.
If you would honor me,
Then strive to live in love,
For in that love I live.
Never ever doubt that we will meet again,
And until that day I will grow in Heaven and wait for you.

My Scare

I spent most of yesterday in pain. I woke up at 3 AM with a horrible headache. My head was throbbing so hard that it was hard to focus on anything. I couldn't keep any food or liquid down even after taking my nausea meds. I tried to work, but after running out 4 times in 2 hours to vomit, I had to leave. I kept checking my blood pressure to make sure that it wasn't elevated, and it was not. I ended up spending most of the day sleeping on the couch. Finally about 8 that night I was able to eat a grilled cheese sandwich and drink some apple juice before bed, and keep it down. Thank goodness that I woke up this morning, and felt much better.

I had a prenatal visit today, and doc thinks I had a virus. I'm just happy that it wasn't something worse. Because as soon as I had a headache that wouldn't go away with tylenol I was worried that the preeclampsia was setting in. But my blood pressure has been good, and I will see my doc again in 2 weeks to make sure things are still good.

I got an awesome deal on the crib bedding so I had to go ahead, and buy it. I got it brand new for $58 plus shipping instead of the $130-150 I've seen it elsewhere. Even though people keep saying that I'm not leaving anything for people to buy me. I think I have plenty on my baby registries, and I'm not going to miss a huge sale on the hopes that someone will buy it for me in the future. So here's a picture of our little princess' bedding.