Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I'm feeling sad right now, and I really shouldn't be but I can't help it. We had our 1st family team conference today, and things don't look good for us getting to keep Squeaky. I'm heart broken. It's hard to even put into words how I feel right now. I can't wish bad things on his birth mom or be upset at her for getting her life together, but it doesn't make the possibility of losing S any less painful. They scheduled our next family team conference for July 24 so hopefully that means that we will have him for at least the next 6 months. I hope we will get to throw him his 1st birthday party, and I'm still praying that it won't be the last birthday we share with him. This hurts so much.
At the same time that we're dealing with this we're getting packed to go to Dallas for the birth of my niece. I can't wait to meet her and hold her. So now I have to put my pain aside and try to enjoy my niece's first couple of days here on earth. We'll hit the road in the morning so I'll post more later because I need some sleep.