Monday, March 29, 2010

I feel like my life has fallen apart. Sunday, I woke up with a horrible headache and my blood pressure was sky high. I ended up staying at home from church because of that and all the puking I was doing non-stop. Rob comes home on his way to take Fuzzy to the circus, and he finds most of the house under an inch of water. While I was asleep in the 2 hours he was gone our front bathroom toilet decided to overflow and overflow and overflow. Now we are stuck in a hotel for probably a week with a very bitchy toddler that doesn't do good at all in hotels. The cry-it-out technique that we have to use on him sometimes does not work in a hotel. Our house has been completely torn up, all the flooring is gone, and there are huge fans everywhere. I'm in tears because I just want things back to the way they should be. I just want to be in my own home.

On top of all that my doctor put me on bedrest because of my elevated blood pressure. I'm terrified of getting fired because of all my health problems, and all the unpaid leave I've had to take over the past year. What the hell will I do if I lose my job? How the hell can I rest with all of this weighing down on me. Why is nothing simple for me ever? I'm so tired of living under a storm cloud all the time. The only good thing that has happened to me in the past few weeks was hearing the baby's good strong heartbeat today.

4 comments:

Robert said...

we'll be ok we just need to remember he will take care of us.

Jill said...

I hesitate to even ask this because I don't like when people question me about my health, but are you taking heparin or lovenox shots? I had skyrocketing blood pressure during my first pregnancy at the end of the second trimester, and had to deliver my baby my emergency C-section, and he later died in the hospital. But for my second pregancy, my doctor put me on heparin shots twice a day, metformin (2000 mg a day), calcium (2000 mg a day), vitamin C (1000 mg a day), and vitamin E (400 IU a day). I took these from the moment I found out I was pregant until the day before I delivered my second full-term son. My doctor increased the amount of heparin I injected four times during my pregnancy as I got farther along, and it helped tremendously with my blood pressure. Like I said, I don't mean to intrude, and this might not work for you, but in my case, I wanted to know what everyone else had done so I could talk with my doctor about it.

Mama Babs said...

ashley, i also don't want to intrude, but i work in hr and can possibly give you some advice/insight regarding time off, etc. email me if you want to (i think my email address shows up in the comments) this is babs from "e" on ww, btw.

Patty said...

He will. He will take care of you. ((hugs)) and prayers.